Just perfectly fine without me

We ended things and now I'm supposed to forget.

I'm supposed wake up tomorrow and act like it didn't have anything to do with my life

I have to act like it doesn't bother me when i wake up and check my phone and there's no text from you

I have to pretend my heart doesn't drop every time i hear your name

I have to pretend that i'm doing just a well as the day before

I sit there and wonder where you are. I wonder if you feel the same

I wonder if pretending what didn't happen is a hard for you

But i can't help but think that you're going through your day just fine

Just perfectly fine without me

I'm tired of feeling like this.

Iwish i could turn of my heartand have a breather from all this pain

But it's hard not to count the minutes when they seem  go by so slowly. 

I'm trying to adjust to this new rhythm Gathering the pieces together to go back to being myself.

So far i've discovered that i'm not strong as you think nor  am i as brave as i once thought.

Find someone who isn't afraid to admit that they miss you

Someone who knows that you're not perfect

But treats you as if you are. 

Find someone whose biggest fear is losing you. One who gives your their heart completely 

Someone who says i love you and actually means it

Last but not least, find someone who wouldn't  mind waking up with you in the morning seeing you in wrinkles and gray hair but still false for you all over again

How to know if someone is here to stay

You don't 

There's no test

There's no gauge

There's no formula that can predict whether someone stays in yout life forever and you can look and see if your zodiac.

You cab compare love language

You can sign marriage license 

And say your vows in front of 100 

You can get matching tattoos you cab cross prinkles

You can make pact after pact after 

But none of this can truly guarantee that relationship will last

But you can hope it does 

You can hope they stay. 

You can hope you wanna wanna stick around too.

Because if you really think about it 

Love ia simply a commitment to continue hoping to continue doing best 

To continue forgiving

To continue laughing

To continue staying

Nothing is certain and sometimes this fact really hurt

But forever shouldn't be the goal of loving anyway it should be just